Me, my Self and I !?

First let me say I'm still on the program. Everything is going great. I eat more then I ate before. But will wait till Sunday for the weigh in. After the dentist on Tuesday, I realized that all the anxiety I felt through out the day was all my doing. I got home and felt more relaxed with myself. The numbness in my jaw left and I didn't feel any pain. Sure it was sensitive to hot or cold, but it was not hurting. Still today, no pain. Yesterday I ran a few errands. Checked the camera store to rent a zoom. The Out Games will be here at the end of July. Wanna take lots of pics at the opening. Got cat food. Found some cute 3D puzzles. Then I decided to see if my finances would allow me to buy... ...a bike. I've wanted a bike for the last 5 years. I want to use it to get around and go to work. By subway it's only 20 minutes. By car, forget it. Parking down town is so expensive. So after checking, I was a bit tight. Then I realized, if I take a cab to and from one doctor, about $20.00. The other, about $36.00. So it's already $56 towards my new bike. So I went for it. Got my bike. It's a Schwinn, hybrid, yellow and white. I'll post a pic of it soon. So after buying the bike, I rode for about 20 min. Once home I just couldn't sit still. So I went for another hour of cycling. The roommate, his name is Pascal BTW, was surprised and liked it. Then when I told him how long I had been gone for he said "don't you think you're over doing it?" Folks, all day yesterday and today, no signs of anxiety, no panic, nothing. I almost feel normal. After chatting a bit with Pascal, I weeded the front yard. Again he warned me, "Pascal, I've been hiding in the house for the last 3 months. When it was sunny, where was I? Inside. Now I feel great. I wanna be outside." Pascal: And now it's raining! Me: So, it's raining. It feels great. So you see guys, I've been almost ok for 2 days. Today I rode for over 3 hours. I love my bike. My first appointment was with my regular doctor. He read what the psychiatrist told me, to wait and see if the higher dosage would work, wait 3 weeks. If not up the dosage once and twice if necessary. If sleeping disorder persist, sleeping pills. I asked him if we could wait on those cause I just started exercising. He gave it to me anyway and said to use it IF I feel the need. I'll give it another week. Some of you know I chat with you till very late, you turn in. I stay up. Then in the morning, we chat again. That was my sleep. Not much. Maybe 4 hours. No nap during the day. I would like to sleep during the day but after half an hour of trying, forget it. The antidepressants are weakening me. Even if I ride my bike, I don't go to fast. My second appointment was with the anxiety specialist. He was surprise to see me on my bike. For the second time, so 2 X $85.00 all we did was go through my history. We stopped today I was 26. So I guess another $85.00 to have me talk again. Thank god I'm not older. lol But all in all guys I think I'm back. And last but not least, it's only been 4 days, but I'm still alcohol free!