My real first day!?

First I'd like to thank every body for the encouraging and thoughtful words. They made me feel good!? Thank you!?

My first day!?

I did get up with the sound of the alarm, but I guess I should start the night before. Since I still have sleeping problems, I'm suppose to take sleeping pills. So I took my pill at 9:30, went to bed at 10:00. By 11:45 I was still not sleeping. Just goes to show you how nervous I was. So I got up, I didn't even have any problems walking. The pill really didn't work. I stayed up till 12:30. Then I fell asleep. I woke up at 4:30 and never went back to sleep. I grabbed a coffee, read some blogs, shaved, showered but I still couldn't find any of the studs from my dream day!? lol I had a huge breakfast. Got dressed. Packed my lunch and put my working clothes in my backpack. I jumped on my trusty steed, my bike!? Yes I rode to work. I wanted to leave the house at 7:00, but ended up leaving at 7:20. The ride down was great, I found a bike path that takes me through quiet streets, parks, I only had about 5 minutes of morning traffic to deal with. I got to the office at 7:50. Once the bike was locked, I sat down to relax. Then, the started. So I breathed deeply. Told myself some positive words, and then I got my legs up to the office!? When I walked in, the girl that opens in the morning saw me and just screamed and came to give me a hug. She said I looked good, calm. If she only knew how much I was shaking inside. lol I said a few hellos, but people were acting as if I had seen them the day before. When I got to my desk, it had been cleaned by the girl that was using it while I wasn't there. I dropped my bag and went around to see other coworkers. They did not say a word. My boss saw me, she was happy to see me. She gave me a hug and we chatted a little. I went back to my desk, put back my stuff. Opened the computer. She came by to give me my passwords. As each application opened, I just went in as if I had done it all summer. I was surprised and happy. My boss came to see me and asked if we could talk right away since she had a meeting at 9. Yes my first meeting was about a raise. lol I wasn't there when I was suppose to get it in June. BTW my real boss is also on sick leave. She left about a month before me, we think suffering the same thing as me. But I think depression hit her harder then me. So this new and improved boss is very nice. She told me not to stress, to take my time. If I need extra breaks or something just to let her know. So I went around the office, a bit . Everything was moving, but not at the same speed. I stopped by our director's office. She was pretty happy to see me. Told me also to take my time and just start when I'm ready. I went back to my desk still with my legs and started reading e-mails. The rest of the people came in, again, some said hi and others didn't even acknowledged my being there. I went on break alone at 10. I smoked a cigarette and went to check my bike. The rest of the morning was uneventful. My boss did take me for coffee. Saying I should take it easy. lol I love her. I ate my lunch outside, and a friend I haven't seen in 2 years walks up to me. He's working in the office building next door. So a few of my dream day came true. lol I sat in with a guy on my team that started a bit after me about 5 years ago. Every time he would put the client on hold to go get an answer, I gave it to him. I was so surprised, it just all came back. (even as I'm writing this I don't remember a thing, but in the office, I knew it) So half an hour before I left I got on the phone and answered a few calls. Treated some faxed in requests. It went as smooth as a !? I even got a lunch date for next week. Some clients have been asking for me, I called them to let them know I'd be back full time by the end of September. Actually the whole afternoon was smooth. I rode my bike back home and was happy as a clam!? Pascal even told me I seem to already be back into it and already taking some things to much to heart!? He may be right. I gotta slow down. I read blogs but did not skype due to a misunderstanding over some caring words I told a great friend. (I see the naïve in me right now) We should catch up tonight. I can't wait.